Where should I start ANGSTING about, hmm, let me think..

First off, I'm on my mid-year break! YAY! YIPPEE! HOORAY! JOY TO THE WORLD! And more crap along the lines of those.. Crap. The thing is, I am bored out of my bloody skull. I have absolutely nothing to do!! And I feel kinda useless.. -insert sadface here-

I've TRIED to find volunteer work, and long story short, it's more complicated that I had expected. You would think, 'Oh yah, you wanna volunteer? SURE, we welcome you WARMLY, :)!!!!' But yeah, no, it doesnt work that way. You need to get permission here, there and everywhere. It's because I'm a bloody international student too. Racist. Lol, ok, not really, but yeah there's problems with insurance, and my visa, and la la la~

-,-

And I've tried to make my lifelong dream come true.. Not many people know about this but.. I've always longed to have horse riding lessons. I was obsessed with horses since I was a child, and alright the obsession lessened as time went by, but still! I've done my research, and all the ranches are so bloody far away.. I cant possibly get there by public transport. I would need to drive, or walk for 20 minutes.. So sad. STILL!! There is one hope left.. There's this place which is around 1 and a half hours away from where I live, and I would only need to walk probably 10 minutes in total. That's totally fair, I feel. I've called them, left a message, but no one got back to me yet. F*ck it, I really need to make this happen. Just imagine, me riding a horse.. With the wind sweeping in my hair.. Lol, so ok, I'll probably need to tie my hair up and stuff it into a helmet, but still. And oooh, learning how to jump, and and.. Omggggg. I REALLY REALLY REALLY need to make this happen for myself!!

Other than that.. What else is new with me..

I dont know if it's safe to say this here or not but..

Well, as I've said before, I am BORED, with a capital B. My friends (like the two of them) are still sort-of busy with school.. I lucked out by finishing early. OR DID I?! -,- But yeah, my only friends are busy, and hence I have no life. I dont like going out alone, I mean I DONT MIND, but I dont exactly like it. It's so lonely, you walk around ALONE, you eat ALONE and then you go home ALONE. I dont like that, I need someone next to me so I can bug the shit out of them!!

Still, a friend of mine introduced me to this anime called One Piece, which is what I am currently watching.. Well, what I WAS watching before I decided to crash in onto Lova's blog and hence start blogging myself.. Hmm. I never gave other anime a chance. I loved Jigoku Shoujo, and I still do, and that was the only anime I ever wanted to watch. God, I love Enma Ai. She is so cool.

What else to say, what else to say.. I cant decide.. -ponders-

Well, I kinda went through this whole awkward stage where I liked someone I know for a bit, and it was really painful, and lalala, long story short, I've decided that I NEED to get over him by now. And I think I did? So it's cool. At least, I THINK it is.. -,- Sometimes, I still question myself.. Sighs.

I guess that's it for now..? It's getting pretty late (or early, when you think about it!).. It's 2am here and I still want to finish watching a few more episodes of One Piece.. DAMN YOU, you shouldnt have asked me to watch it!! Bleh.

So goodnight world, and may you have sweet and sour dreams. Like sweet and sour pork yeah? :)